I'm a dreamer. Meaning I dream a lot. About the weirdest things. And about the most random people, even the people I don't want to dream about. The other day I woke up after a particularly... confusing and frustrating dream involving... someone who's appeared in my dreams a few times before.
As usual, I have a hard time keeping most of my dreams to myself. I told my friend Makae about this confusing dream and she, having heard about my other incidental dreams concerning this person, just shook her head and agreed with me about my demented-ness.(Well at least I think she did, we weren't actually in the same room at the time I told her.)
Well a few days later, Makae brings up my little dream episode and shared a very intriguing insight she stumbled upon. She told me that I probably had these dreams about this person (who is a guy, just so you're aware) because deep down in my subconscious I want him to want me. And of course the next thing in my head is "I want you to want me. I need you to need me."
Could Makae be right though? Is it possible that, deep down, I really do want this person to want me? Is that the source of confusion that rushes through me every time I have a dream where this person makes an appearance? That I really just want him to want me? And if it's true... how do I get rid of it? In the daylight I don't want him but when the darkness falls... all heck just breaks loose in my subconscious. This can't be good.
Maybe I should just stop dreaming...